you must read this... this hits home very hard... people ask me often what happened that my personality changed and i stopped doing the things that gave me joy and disappeared from my friends lives... SEVERE PROLONGED DEPRESSION only with professional help was i able to come out on the other side... although the scars of depression are hard to see sometimes, in my case, they are easy. before my ex left i was a hefty but stable 265lbs, only 40 lbs off my best weight and only 20lbs off my competitive weight. after 3 months i was 315 and after 7 months i was 365. i've hovered between 365 and 335 for the last 4 years. 367 was the most i weighed and during the last 4 years 327 was the lightest i got before the pain of working out overwhelmed me.
please read the article, the pain of severe depression is unimaginable for someone who has never gone through it. and for people say "just get over her" or "snap out of it" can't see your soul lopped in half and bleeding all over the place. if they could visually see how you felt they would never say dumb shit like that and would trying to take your ass to a hospital emergency room. I AM BEING REALLY FUCKING SERIOUS ABOUT THAT LAST POINT. really, they would stop their lives and help you. in my case i had to get a professional counselor and after 5 months (yes, 5 months) i recovered enough not to go anymore.
the good news is that i am now getting a surgery to help me remove that scar and more importantly MOVE THE FUCK ON with my life. i hope you all read the article and understand a little about depression you may not have known.
http://www.cnn.com/2012/08/21/health/raison-suicide-tony-scott/index.html
please read the article, the pain of severe depression is unimaginable for someone who has never gone through it. and for people say "just get over her" or "snap out of it" can't see your soul lopped in half and bleeding all over the place. if they could visually see how you felt they would never say dumb shit like that and would trying to take your ass to a hospital emergency room. I AM BEING REALLY FUCKING SERIOUS ABOUT THAT LAST POINT. really, they would stop their lives and help you. in my case i had to get a professional counselor and after 5 months (yes, 5 months) i recovered enough not to go anymore.
the good news is that i am now getting a surgery to help me remove that scar and more importantly MOVE THE FUCK ON with my life. i hope you all read the article and understand a little about depression you may not have known.
http://www.cnn.com/2012/08/21/health/raison-suicide-tony-scott/index.html
-depression survivor dominator
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