come to Jesus meeting...

alright tomorrow me and my diet and exercise are having a "come to Jesus" meeting (and i don't mean the shaved ice guy on the NorthSide) i have got to commit to change and do a better job of following through. i have to do more than talk and blog about change i gots to DO IT. no more excuses. now i have done a fairly good job of working out on the regular but my tastebuds are WAY outta whack.

my plan is to take these days we have off and clean out the fridge and freezer from the bad food then go shopping for healthy food. i have fruits and veggies on the list. i don't believe in new years resolutions BUT i do believe in making plans and this my friends is the year of positive change.

-cracked oats and oranges dominator

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having small victories...

ok, the rules are NOTHING deep fried and limit sugary drinks. can't say ALL just cuz any electrolyte beverage (THAT I WILL DRINK) has sugar in it. but other than that coffee. tried the splenda Nizzy but didn't like it. but my coffee consumption is way down. went from 7 cups to only 2 cups a day through lots of withdrawl headaches and sleep. at 50 calories a cup that's 250 cals gone!

i'm eating breakfast everyday now. i have to make myself cuz my stomach doesn't like solid food in the morning. but here's where i found something kinda cool. if i eat a small breakfast like an egg and english muffin, i get a boost of energy that seems to last a while. not as much as coffee but no crash of coffee either.

i will try to keep updating but i'd rather do than talk. once i start making better progress i'll post more.

-whole wheat raisin english muffin n egg dominator

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small diet successes...

starting to crave healthy foods again. amazing what happens when you dismiss the urges for breaded and or deep fat fried food.

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workin' out at lunch again...

so i started working out at lunch again. just elliptical.

-lunch crunch dominator

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wtg white rock runners...

congrats to all that finished

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one week down...

started a new workout streak. one week in. sticking to nothing fried and avoiding sugar drinks. i never realized how much i hate the taste of Splenda. trying Truvia today and allowing myself one G2.

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fundthis.net...

it's official my fundraising website is released to the public. if you have a paypal account you can easily start raising money FOR FREE (paypal fees apply). there is a video on the site to help. http://fundthis.net tell me what you think

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starting a new streak today...

this time i will have a focus on food. so i have been sticking to nothing fried but the sugar drinks are harder than i hoped. but this NEW streak will be working just like last time but i will integrate the food into it. hopefully this will lead to positive results.

i'm releasing my site to the public today i will blast all media sometime this evening so if you follow me anywhere you'll see an update. wishing all of you a great holiday weekend.

i love "black friday" cuz all the Christmas stuff is out. my mood is improving. not working for the man today but i am working on my site so back to work for me.

-turkey stuffed dominator

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concentrating on food...

decided not to concentrate on working out and on diet. so here are the rules:

nothing fried

no sugary drinks (minus coffee)

that's it. simple huh? going to try this and see where it goes.

-un-chicken fried dominator

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streak ended...

i ended my streak yesterday on purpose. i need the rest PLUS i wasn't proud of some of the days "workouts" 10mins of weight training although intense wasn't what i had in mind. besides the most important thing for me was self esteem and losing weight. both took a nose dive last month and i got some life changing news monday that i have had a hard time dealing with.

i am busy trying to get my website out but afterwards i will have to refocus on cooking for myself and working out. when i say cook for myself i don't mean healthy starting off just NOT fast food. if i cook bad food at least i'm cooking. i am working on a grocery list and meals. if you know of any good websites let me know.

personal chef at 15 meals a week at 500/month plus groceries is too much. so this is my plan b.

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yo, yo, and hello chicken fried nation...

i decided that even if i don't have much to say i will say something. lets see. my interest in working out everyday is waning and many days i struggle to get ten minutes in. when i do do ten minutes its usually weights. i can't really do too much more than that with hurting my back. all this weather has been wasted on me cuz i haven't ridden in a while. and by the time i get home it's dark and that defeats the purpose of a beautiful day for me.

anyways, i HAVE been working on my website and will be releasing it to the public BLACK FRIDAY!!! i have been working on this for over a year and it has gone through several iterations but i finally distilled it down and i really believe it will be a hit. i allow anyone with a paypal account to raise money and track whose donating VERY SIMPLY and for free. more to come on that.

but as far as working out and losing weight i have completely lost focus.

-chicken fried dominator

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happy november everybody...

i haven't been that on top of the blog game lately cuz there really hasn't been anything of note to report. however dominator is getting tired of having to buy clothes from the biggun tall websites. i just bought the largest waist size ever!!! to embarassed to say. no i'm not 50"!!! geez. anyways, getting traction eating the right foods is the hardest it has ever been. i just like food too much right now. it makes me feel good and it's hard not to eat to feel good.

i thought going on this workout streak would help. and it has because it at least it tapped the break on me reaching 400 lbs. but i mean DAMN 50" waist? you kiddin' me? i found a private chef service for 500 a month and i think that will be the key if i don't come up with something over the holidays. i mean a full meal with of parmigiana tilapia, brown rice, broccoli with butter sauce at 400 calories? and all you have to do is pop it in the oven when you get home? NO BRAINER... but 500 is steep. anyways just lettin' you know ya boyz gotta plan!

streak still alive but interest is almost 0. i will be more proud of the scale dropping.

-fiddy inch waist dominator

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bad blogger...

for all those still wit me. hang on it'll get good once a get in a good rhythm. i mean dang my back blew out, i got a cold and had to take work home with me for the last 5 weeks.

but... THE STREAK IS STILL ALIVE BABY... if you look on the calendar you'll see "train" that just means weights at home. if you've followed me on FB you'll know i bought some of those selecttech dumbbells. the best .4 kilo bucks i ever spent. they are awesome cuz in just a few clicks u have a totally different weight.

rode and did some weights today but the back wasn't feeling up to too much so i shortened the ride. the earths gravitational pull on my body is increasing so i really need to get my diet under control. i just lack discipline. i'm trying some new things to get motivated so stay tuned...

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quick status message...

well, i'm going to try and be better but i don't want to bore you guys. basically my diet is (always has been) the problem. the streak is still going. i had to do some walking around the corner on the days with the bad fever and hurt back but i got outta bed strapped on the Polar and got to steppin'. those days are represented as "yard work" because i don't have a "walking" item (nor do i plan on making one). no offense but "walking" is for old or sick or disabled people so i don't plan on making it a habit. i'm turning the corner on the sickness so when the weather permits i'll hit the road.

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rain, rain, and mo rain...

i am sooo done with all this rain. you agree nizzy? at least you and stace swim. all i want to do is ride. well, i am trying some new things in the diet to help get the weight off. i'll let you know if it succeeds or fails to early to report right now.

i get depressed when i don't get sunlight so this entire week of rain and darkness is wearing on me. happy to report back is getting much better and the streak is still going. one day i had to drop down to 15 mins at the gym but i figure that's ok. there are NO blank spots on the calendar and that to me is a good thing. i can't believe i've doing this for 3 months now. that's a quarter of a year? at this point i don't think about it. i just know i have to ride or go to the gym every day. it simplifies things when you know you just go no matter what. it's like going to work or eating lunch at this point.

people that know me know i am NOT tooting my own horn. i just state what's going on. my goal is to be under 3 bills by year end and if i keep going it looks totally doable. i don't know how or when i will end the workout streak but just know when i started i told myself go until i can't. NOT go until i don't feel like it. so i'm happy the back injury that cause me to go to the doctor and miss work didn't stop me from walking on the treadmill. i'm trying guys and this is not easy but i didn't get this way overnight and i won't get back in a day either. thanks for staying tuned in.

-garlic mashed potatoes dominator

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09.09.09...

called in and slept all day but decided NOT to end the streak and do some treadmill walkin' to get the blood flowing to the lower back. so i'm out of sick days so the next one will most likely come out of the pocket. that's ok. i can't work or do anything if i can't think cuz of pain. i'm taking some meds to help relax the muscles and reduce swelling. bottom line THE STREAK IS ALIVE.

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back is killing me...

so i was picking up Griffen and moved suddenly and tweeked my back. i went for a ride anyways and it didn't feel that bad but it got MUCH worse this morning. i could hardly roll out of bed. i think its a muscle pull but it kinda feels like a sports hernia. it feels like the top and bottom half of me is coming apart. i've got some leftover pain meds that i'm on just trying to relax. but i KNOW i'm going to head to the gym and get my workout in no matter.

i have a streak of over 2 months going and i don't want it to end now. go until i can't was the rule. so i will show up to the gym and if i can't do the eliptical the streak will end. praying it won't but stay tuned.

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developing clearspring widgets at work...

this is just one i like.

climbin' the hill...

well, lets see. i have been experimenting with putting aero bars on the moots compact (road bike) but this isn't working out as i'd hoped. there are 3 pressure points on your body when you ride. your feet, hands and seat. new shoes has fixed the feet problem on both bikes, the arione tri seat has fixed the a55 problem on both bikes. now i have the major problem of my hands. on the moots ybb i have ergon grips that even against my intial protesting seem to work quite well. thanks clarence. but at over 300 i am putting a lot of pressure on my hands. imagine holding a pushup holding onto the pointy end of a broomstick. and that's how bad my hands hurt after 30 minutes.

that's why i'm trying the aero bar experiment. more on this later. but for now i am celebrating me climbing Ascension Hill for the 3rd straight time. before tuesday i was walking up it but my legs have gotten strong enough to climb it. it has taken over two months of working out EVERYDAY to get my legs strong enough to do this. so this is a MAJOR accomplishment for me. yay me!!!

but that being said my diet has taken a turn for the worst. i will be addressing that this week by purchasing some tasty healthy food at da sto'. stay tuned.

for now i'm celebrating my Ascension Hill accomplishment.

-sausage roll dominator

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omg, can you say whale...

i'm keeping up the workouts but my diet is getting outta hand. the last 3 days it's been buffet style at the house. i just stopped short of putting up a Golden Corral sign in the yard. tonight i have no idea what i'll have but it won't be good for me. i'm letting my body rebel this week and i will hit it hard next week. the elliptical workouts are still fairly easy for me to keep doing and the gym in the evenings has plenty o' cute "scenery" to look at.

one major milestone is my fat 300+ a55 climbed Ascension Hill for the first time since being over 300. that means my legs and heart are getting stronger. now if i can just push the dinner plate back.

the dominator comeback tour continues...

-300+ ascension hill dominator

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still going...

i've been pretty busy at work these days but just keep checking on the calendar for my progress. still going...

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a year later...

"moving forward, no matter how slowly, is always a step in the right direction"

-revnique

a year ago today my ex left. if you follow me on facebook there is a note on there you can read. just know the B---- did me a favor. off to ride the bike.

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happy birthday dad...

just wanted to wish my dad a happy 64 birthday. you need to ride that bike i got you.

well back to me. i've been kinda preoccupied with the tour de france and haven't really updated the ole blog. main reason is that i would give away all the stage winners. so how about that TDF lance gets third but you know he was pissed he didn't get first no matter what he says.

my training... i have been picking my spots. i rode the road bike for the first time in months yesterday inspired by the TDF. but i will be going back to the mountain bike though. i finally changed out the seat on the mtn. bike figuring that it was the seat that has been tearing up my nether-regions (tmi, i know). clarence at the duck suggested that i just pull out the whole seat post and swap it that way. so i am probably the only dude on a Moots YBB with an Arione Tri seat with dual bottle holders on the seat post. SEXY...

but let me tell you the padded nose coupled with the microsensor shorts is a "life changer" for sure. hopefully it clears up this evening for a good ride.

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big toe soe...

i have a severly ingrown toenail that's making it hard to ride and do the elliptical. the saddle sores aren't really healing so i'm thinking about taking a break. i will keep going until i can't. i'm thinking that now may be the time to put some weights in just to keep off of my feet.

might have to go to the doc about the toe but i don't know how they are going fix it. other than anti-bi's i don't what they'll do. do they do surgery for that sort of thing? geez. anyways, it's been a month and a week and i'm still kickin'

-da nasty toe dominator

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don't no body take-a my pride...

can't no body hold me down. uh oh, i got to keep on movin'

so far, so good. so after weeks of going to the gym everyday i got WAY bored and to that, that the tour is on, i decided to venture outside. I've been taking out the mountain bike because of its suspension and ability to gear way down for the hills. my butt is was in indescribable pain. i have noticed if i take some Aleve before work it does a good job of taking the sting off.

friday i felt so good that i rode before and after work. so today i decided to only ride once...but in the heat of the day. it was only 95 as a high today and felt WAY better than a hunn'ed. at some point i know i will start to weight train but for now its only cardio. i plan on taking sunday off of the bike to let the nether-regions heal. that means gym for 30 mins. that will probably be difficult just because it's so boring.

everyday, i see a little more of "dominator" coming back but it's LONG way away at this point.

-dickeys bbq ribs dominator

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I DID IT!!!

one entire month straight. from the 14th to the 14th!!! everyday, i have either gone to the gym or riden the bike. it hasn't been easy and my crotch will attest to that, but i have done it.

this is just the beginning. i have OVER a hunn'ed to lose but this is a good start.

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day 29 and counting...

so i broke with routine but i got back into it. i am getting quite sick of the elliptical at this point so i decided to ride my bike yesterday. i can't tell you how painful that was. my hands and feet and...seat were throbing in pain after about 5 miles and at 10 miles i thought i was going get off my bike and start crying. but i finished the whole 12 miles. those that don't know or forgot 12 miles is from my front door to the 7 mile marker at River Legacy and back.

lets say that i had no plans to ride today at all and the elliptical was definitely in order. i got it done but i hope i can walk tomorrow. after the ride yesterday my knees and hips felt almost arthritic. yet another reason i didn't ride today was saddle sores. in a few days i hope to hit the bike again or at least the trainer after work. stay tuned.

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breaking routine...

i went yesterday in spite of of my stomach problems but when i came home i went straight to bed and had to call in. i think i could have made it to work if i hadn't gone. but i was so dog sick that i didn't. this morning i'm just going to go to work and tell myself i'll make it afterwards. i can't risk losing any days of work. stay tuned.

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finally got my polar back...

so, like three weeks ago when i started this streak my polar got a crack in it and started to fill with condensation. the next day i took my old one in to get the battery changed. well, that one ended up water damaged so they had to send it in. after they said it would take a week three weeks later viola!!! a brand new polar s625x mmmm, mmm.

they didn't even charge tax. so i recommend if you need your battery changed or a 30% discount on new one that is unrepairable, take it to the dallas repair center. it's in downtown and there is a parking lot next to the building.

My weight: well yesterday after i weight myself i was pissed to see it at almost the highest it's been. so i just said 4k'it for today and eat whatever and i went to whataburger for breakfast, i had my cousin babe (chicken dinner house) fix me some fried chicken for lunch and i had my papa john fix me a pizza for dinner. with 2 venti starbucks mixed in for added bonus. so i weighed myself same time i do as always and it was down 2 lbs. that being said i officially don't really care what the scale says... for now anyways.

day 19 and counting and i'm not dead or dibilitated so i'll just keep going. i might even do a two-a-day or 2 over the holiday. gotta work on the diet but i know that will come.

-chicken fried steak dominator

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17 days and counting...

so if you've been checking the calendar you've noticed i haven't let up. isn't there a saying like 'everyday and twice on sunday'. well, i did go twice on sunday. i am noticing a huge improvment in my energy level. it takes less caffine to get through the day. i am also noticing my hr decreasing for about the same effort. what i am NOT noticing is a drop in weight. i have been eating like crap the past week but i have started getting back into things. the Tour starts saturday so things for me will start to go quickly.

i ride my trainer while the tour is on every year and hopefully this will lead to some outdoor action. anyways, i'm back on it and ain't gonna get off it... (till i do then i'll just get back on it again)

-dominator (you know how he doo)

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slight progress...

i can NOW put my socks on WITHOUT holding my ankle. so my flexibility is improving. this is a difference i can see and feel. it may seem like a small thing but it is a quality of life change so it's significant. i don't know if i'll sign up for CDA for next year but i am waiting to see how much i can lose by labor day. if on labor day the loss makes training in january seem feasible i will do it.

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toh'UP... all kinds a toh'UP...

ok, so far day 5 is down so i successfully finished the work week by dragging my fat a55 to the gym every morning first thing. so the dilema now is do i take a rest day? right now the answer is hell no. when i can't drag my fat a55 outta bed in the morning and hit an elliptical for 30 mins that will be my day off. hopefully that will be never. how did i guy go from racing mtn. bikes, riding in rallys and competing in triathlons get to the point where he can't put his socks on without holding his ankle on top of his knee with the off hand!!!

i'm just keepin' it real and that's why you're reading this right now. stay tuned.

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no jinxin' it...

so far the plan is working. i'm dragging my butt outta bed and driving to the gym and hittin' the elliptical for 30mins. i gotta little streak going so keep checking out the calendar to see if start slippin'. i'm updating every 2 days on the reg so check it out.

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fat boy on a diet...

this has gotten completely outta hand. poundage is up to 348. i'm at the any means necessary point. i'm gonna hurt. i'm gonna lose sleep. i'm gonna be very unfortable. but i will win. you have feel good pain (workout, hunger) to avoid bad pain (injury, tight clothes)

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heavy d...

the force i excert on the earth due to gravity is increasing. i'm up to 345 and no end is in sight. i keep goin through waves of motivation. and man let me tell you that Texas sun and heat are too oppressive to deal with after work. and i am just not motivated to wake up and go before work. the afternoon workouts for lunch are completely out of the question.

why? because by the time i get done and shower my body heat is still too high so i end up sweating even after my shower. nothing worse to be sitting in sweaty drawz all day long, clean or no. my diet is erratic but i believe i am finding some stable ground. my will power has gotten stronger with these many attempts so that is one of the good things.

if you notice small objects getting caught in my gravitational pull then you know i'm beyond help. i will do this. I MUST, and i will. stay tuned.

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ok, so to update yall on what's be going on. on friday i decided to buy some new cycling shoes cuz my old ones are mighty rickety. they have huge holes in the toe area which makes it the only reason my size 45's still fit my size 47 feet. 2 whole sizes?!? that's what 100 extra lbs will do to you.

so i thought that would be enough to get me riding again. but NOOOO, i'm being a lazy ass and eating shit all day long. i am completely off the wagon. i think this is just a stage caused by letting myself get over caffinated this week. i was up to 12 shots of espresso on friday. NOT GOOD. so yesterday i decided to only do half of that. so far so good.

ok so yesterday to go with the whole gotta fit have cycling clothes and technical gear that fits me if i'm going to ride like i should theme, i visited the pearl izumi store. sorry clarence, i had to go to pure clothing store so i could try on a bunch of stuff. to my horror there were some xxxL clothes i couldn't fit in. that's code for drop the twinkie if i ever heard it. the good news is they had 2 outfits on their clearance rack that fit me. 2 pairs of shorts and jerseys. i even picked up a limited edition garmin chipotle/ slipstream jersey for $40!!! i got some socks too.

so the total of all the gear shoes, socks, jerseys, and shorts?!? 700 bones!!! so i guess i am size appropriate now and my wallet is lighter. i just i have to make me lighter now. for now i am just going to wait until i FEEL like riding or working out. i have got to let my motivation catch fire again. IT WILL!!!

till next time

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Happy Birthday To Me...

made it one more year. my last year sucked. but this year will be better. IT HAS TO.

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pain every day...

ok, its getting really hard to do cardio. if i do the elliptical i will have to wear compression shorts and vaseline up. tmi i know. but i did ride yesterday for 12 miles and my saddle sores are almost unbearable. that's why i take 2 days of rest between rides.

yet more motivation to diet right.

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no lbs lost yet...

been switching over to clean burning fuel for the last three weeks and still no results. i counted the cals and i'm taking in 25% less cals than i was before and some days i'm 50% less. not really noticing a change in inches yet either. there is only ray of hope.

my energy. my energy is more up than it was 3 weeks ago for sure. every third day i do weights and every third day i try to ride outside. the days in between that i am not doing either i ride the trainer. here's the bottom line: i will not give up this time no matter what!!!

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omg me arse is sore...

ok, so went for a mountain bike cruise after work yesterday. basically i'm so fat that one look in the mirror causes me to head for a workout. i'll be doing upper body on lunch today.

how bad does the arse hurt? hard to go pot but at least it's sore and not chaffed. i have a strategy to fix the friction issue that seems to be working. more to come. stay tuned.

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i'm chafed up... (in akon voice)

ok, so i decided not to ride the bike so i heal the nether regions. instead i went to 24 and did the elliptical for 20 mins. too much friction. so i think next time i will do some time on the stair climber just to burn the leg muscles a bit. on the slate today is just 10 mins on the trainer after work. my upper body is still weak from the workout on monday so i will just rest.

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rode before work, YEAH...

ok, i figured it out. the saddle sores are coming from fat and pulling and not from friction. nuff said. i tuffed it out and rode this morning despite the pain. it's only 30 minutes but its a start. lets see where it goes from here.

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difficulty putting on shoes...

well it's time to get real. i never thought i'd get so fat and outta shape that i would have a hard time putting on shoes and socks. but, that's where i am right now. let's just say dominator isn't even dominating putting on shoes. this is just fuel to the fire. i am changing my eating habits and i am on a strict ride the trainer everyday kick. this i feel will help me stay on the path. more to come.

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wow it's been a while...

i haven't really had much to blog about. and i try not to bore you guys with meaningless drivle. to catch you up my basic plan is to work out at lunch and ride the trainer when i get home from work. i refuse to buy bigger drawz. when i get a good rhythm going i'll blog more for sure.

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national day of prayer...

Dear Lord, let me workout hard yet not injure myself.

in all seriousness, i am trying to find that fine line of working hard but not TOO hard. in addition to that throwing around another 100lbs or so lbs is good either. i am on the road let just hope there are no steps backward.

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happy 1st birthday griffen...

so i've been making an effort heading to the gym and putting in about 15 mins. why so short? because that's about how much time i have to put in work at lunch time. you see, i'm trying to get into a rhythm and nothing will mess that up more than getting ahead of myself. i think next week i will add in riding the trainer everyday for 10 minutes.


right now my goal is consistancy. tomorrow i will head in to do some chest and arm work followed by legs the next day. thats it for now. let me leave you with "nothing worth doing is easy"


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so long favorite month...

mental breaks are going well. i have been resting better at night and drinking less coffee in the day. my only regret this year is that i didn't ride my mtn bike on dirt this month. i am still at 333 but i am doing some resistance work and eating at more regular time intervals. what i keep telling myself is that i can't expect things to resolve overnight. but i try to plant seeds everyday. that means do something today that will yeild results tomorrow and avoiding the opposite.

when i start a decent streak i will blog more often. but i will leave you with this.

i love april in texas so much that if i were a billionare and i had a house on every contenent i would spend april in texas.



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almost there...

my biggest obsticle is a mental one. i have been struggling to move forward mentally but it hasn't been easy. i took 12 days off of work and the whole time my grandmother was in a coma so i didn't rest like i was planning to. a year ago this weekend i was on a getaway to proposed to my girlfriend. a year ago sunday i dropped to one knee and proposed. she said yes. i remember this like it was yesterday. that's my problem. i have too good of a memory. tomorrow with be the official day 4/27...

anyways, i figured it be good to get it out and help me move on. there are people that knew me before i met her and to those people i slowly declined into the 333lb lump of poo i am now. BUT... this is not me. i promise myself daily i will get back to where i was.

my number one focus point is mentally be where i am. i have for too long been stuffing down my emotions with food or other things. ENOUGH... i have been through some stuff and i must deal with it. i must FEEL it. so i am letting myself do that. i have given myself permission to feel things so i can sweep the deck clean and put a winning streak together. i will. right now NOTHING is taking priority over my mental health break NOTHING. i hope more positive things to say next time.

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still here...

i am just trying to do something worthy of blogging about. right now i'm still recovering from the loss but i am way better than a week ago this time. i figure the best thing is not to rush into anything.

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time to start a winning streak...

i will ride the trainer everyday (at least) and go the gym when i can most likely lunchtime.

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tax day, and life accounting...

well, i don't know what to say. i feel like i've taken 3 giant steps backwards. this is all part of the righteous struggle to move forward in my life. i can tell you if i am not around 300 when IM CDA this year rolls around i won't sign up for next year. i would have to loose too much and try to train all at the same time and that didn't work last time. all's i can say now is we are where we are and we move forward from here.

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time to move on...

the funeral is today. so hopefully i can put all these emotional things behind and start to get my life together. i have a plan and made preparations now i just have to execute. decide, commit succeed.

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gone to be with the Lord...

RIP Grandmother

3/10/1927 - 4/9/2009

what's up...

well, just to clear the air a little. my grandmother had a heart attack on friday 3/27 and hasn't regained consiousness. as of today she is still out and not on life support. the doctors expected her to pass on a while ago but for now she's resting peacefully in hospital.

i started to think of what she'd want me to be doing with my life and she'd want me to get back to being me again. the only place other than work i have gone to has been mad duck and that is usually around lunch time so i can get away from the office for an hour.

the swag is coming back though. i am laughing more and unconsiously planning my day around workouts. i plan on going to the gym for lunch at least 3 days a week. we'll see how that goes. my new mantra has been "not if i don't feel like it". keep this one thing in mind: NOONE ever told me to ride my bike, learn how to swim, buy running shoes, eat the right foods or do up to three workouts a day!!! NOONE!!! i did it because i wanted to. or should i say... I HAD TO!!! that is just the way i'm put together. the fat slob that can't ride more than 3 days a week that i am now is NOT ME!!! the wise cracken cocky sometimes unintentional a55hole that dated 20 different girls in 20 weeks... (can't believe i did that) that's ME!!! the guy that got his dominator nickname by making the then best rider i knew get off of his bike and lay on the asphalt that's me. so yeah my mantra is not if i feel like it because i KNOW i will and if i don't that means i need to try and fix what's stopping me.

believe it or not i haven't touched an cadbury egg since i last said i was back last month. i will get my last four in this Easter sunday.

i haven't been to work since my grandmother went into the hospital. but i will start again this thursday. there are more things i will share in due time but i figured this is a start to getting back blogging again. take care all.

-dominator


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No April Fools...

i got soooo many people last year and had people that got emotional thinking i hurt myself so i decided not this year. one thing i can say is that april is my FAVORITE month. why april... april 1st 96 i became a Christian, the blue bonnets are out, the temps are best they will be all year in TX not too hot or cold, the morning air is fresh and clean and the grass is emerald green. mtn biking in april here could be my only reason for living... its not but its enough.

-dominator


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Personal Stuff...

sorry guys but i have been having some family issues. but i have been doing some good things. i have the week off and won't go back to work until next wednesday. i am trying to use the time wisely.

-dominator


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Doin' Good Things...

ladies and gents stay tuned will update you starting friday (3/27)

-dominator


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Hang in There Don't Give Up...

this is what i'm telling myself these days. that ex thing really sent into a tailspin. i am realizing now that positive change is just as much emotional as it is mental, with a little spiritual thrown in there for good measure.

on a positive note the sun is out for now and my plum tree is at full bloom for the next 2 days. griffen doesn't like that because will all the bees i have to keep the window completely closed so he can't sniff outside. i might crack it a little. other good news is i have been making progress on my website. don't worry you'll hear all about it when it's released.

i have given myself a pass this week just to collect my emotions and prepare to hit it strong. why am i blogging about this? it's life and in the end i and you will be able to look back and see where i came from. it's a daily challenge.

-dominator


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Good Quotes...

"the great thing about the past is that its in the past, the bad thing about the past is that its in the past" -dominator

or said a different way: the best memories you had in your life will always be good because you can't go back and f' it up. but unfortunately your bad memories you can't go back and make better.

here is a famous quote: "the past is history, the future is a mystery, but now is a gift that's why they call it the present" -unknown


-dominator


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Cleansing Weekend...

ok, i tried to get it all out this weekend about the ex. i found out some things that really pissed me off and hurt me. but that was IN THE PAST. i have got to strain forward and not get pulled backwards.

i will come up with the ttnw items next week. the problem i had was including 90 programs in there that were too tough for me to complete and that derailled my efforts. so now with the 10 min trainr dvds the workouts are MUCH simpler only 10 moves for 1 minute each on the 5 categories: abs, cardio, lower body, full body, and yoga) so i can adjust it to my taste. like at least do 1 and then if i feel like it do 4. don't be fooled these aren't powderpuff moves. the full body one got my hr up to 185. 10 minutes of boom, boom, boom can get your hr up in a hurry.

i just have to get my mind right and start committing to things again. i know i will and for me it's like 3 steps forward 2 steps back but i am moving forward.


-determined dominator


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Going OFF...

i am soooo pissed right now. i'll tell you why some day but let me say this. if my ex is reading my blog STOP IT! you are not welcome here. you left me for NO valid reason as far as i'm concerned and left my life in shambles. "why so they can trick me into staying with you" will be the last thing i ever hear coming out of you CRAZY mouth. btw. for all that don't know this is what she said to me when i suggested marriage counseling. "Trick..." that is what you did to me. who agrees to marry someone and then leaves with nothing the other person can do. someone apparently crazy and or confused.

so if you're reading this. just stop it.

now to better and more important things. i will give a separate post later today or tomorrow. i have new ttnw items i'm commiting to.


-dominator


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Uggg...

well i talked to clarence at the duck and he seems to think i'm just gonna have to deal with the saddle sores. Logic: if you didn't have any problems with the seat or handlebars or shorts before and the only thing that changed was your weight... you might just have to deal with it until you drop some lbs.

sounds sad but true. so where am i on that? well i had my last cadbury egg last night. i told myself i will have 4 more easter weekend but i'm not allowing myself to bring any home. i'm not really a chocolate kinda person. i never really eat the stuff until easter season. anyways, i really need to make a major effort at watching the bad stuff.

i'm still waiting for the vids to get here so i can start learning those routines. more to come.

-dominator


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Just Another Day on the Earth...

i am failing the cadbury creme egg test. BIG TIME!!! my record is 5 dozen last easter season. i'm not on pace but there is always that home stretch run so don't count me out. just say NO!!! doesn't seem to be working. i'm an egg-fiend.

well i decided that after this last dozen i bought is done NO MORE. well maybe one more... :^D

my hands and feet feel arthritic after my last ride. so i'm going to have to get the bikes adjusted at the duck soon. other than chocolotey, creamy eggs my diet has been alright. i have been making an effort for healthy breakfasts and lunches. ttyl...


-dominator


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In-cog-negro...

well, well, well. I decided the since the sores weren't bleeding that i would chance a ride on my mtn bike. that was before a HUGE headache i got starting at noon. anyone who thinks caffine isn't addictive should try to go from 2 cups a coffee a day to zero and see what your body does. after 2 redbulls (sugar free) and 4 advil at about 4pm the headache was gone. i think a lil of it was to do with tension in my neck and head from the crunches/pushups.

anywho, i hit the road at 530pm. while on river legacy i rode past and waved to an old bulgarian aquaintance elena. i haven't seen her since end of 06. i was 250 then. point is she didn't recognize me. so i turned around and called her name. she took a minute and said "hey, not to be rude, but i remember you being a lot thinner" i laughed and said yeah. she said what happened. i said my ex happened. she kept saying well you need to get back in shape and get out there. and i said what do you think i'm doing right NOW? good point she said.

bottom line is i have had it. i have started eating better breakfast lunch and dinner. i have reduced my fast food intake by half and am eating home cookin. i had a spinach, onion, mushroom and tomatto omlette with whole bran pancakes yesterday and i forgot how good it tasted. its supposed to turn to bad weather this week so we'll see what kind of workouts i'll do. i expect those 10 min dvds to arrive so i suspect i will start those. stay tuned...



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Noone on the Corner has Swagga Like US...

unfortunately its cadbury creme egg season. this is so much of a weakness for me it could be called an addiction. whats the cure... one more egg... just one more...

i did my 100 pushups and 200 crunches and 50 and 100 yesterday. i doubt i will do them tomorrow. i am so sore all over i feel sick. so i will take daylight savings day and rest... an hour less of it. i suppose when it's 7pm the temp is 77 and i still have an hour of sun on a wednesday i will appreciate the 3 week early time change. but for all us NON lifelong swimmers it's gonna be hard getting ready for work when it's dark outside.

the non-swimmer comment is cause i know from high school to masters swimming practice usually starts 5:30-6am. dunno why that is but it seems universal. i feel pukey from all those reps. but i ahve been working keeping the diet managable. so far so good. more to come later.

-dominator


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Saddle Sore Big Time...

wow, i mean there's blood and everything. not to get too graphic but wow. i did ride the moots ybb and not the mootour compact figuring the extra cushyness would help. and it did. i actually got a good leg workout from it. some highschool jackholes decided to slow down and yell some profane statements about me riding (on the sidewalk?) and toss some liquid at me. thankfully all i heard was the f'word because of the iPod and they weren't professional liquid tossers cuz they missed by a mile.

so other than that... i had i decent ride. i am no where near the shape i need to be in or have the crotch tolerance to take the ybb off road. but as the lbs come off i will. i can tell you that this weekend i will be doing 100 pushups and 200 crunches a day. not all in one sitting but i will get them done because i can't ride and i have to let the nether regions heal. today i plan on doing half of that total after work this way i will be good and total body worked out.

on the lunch front. i have been going to long john silvers everyday. and man let me tell you their new healthy meals are pretty good. where else can you get fast food grilled tilapia and SALMON? my only concern is that i don't want to burn out on it. i don't think so. and breakfast sadly is still coffee and dinner is up in the air. but i am getting closer to all-around better diet. i am preferring the good stuff now so that's a good thing. time to go BACK to bed and dream of a skinnier and faster me.


-dominator


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N PAIN... well it's not that bad...

first with the current events: T.O. is No Mo Wit Romo n the Boyz. translation: terrell owens is out in dallas. so the monstrosity that i voted for exactly 2.1 miles from my front door known as cowboys stadium will not have TO in it at least not as a Cowboy. Although he was honest most if not all the time, there is a time to keep your mouth shut. a lesson i am still learning myself.

the pain i feel this morning is about my hands n feet riding my bike. i'm just not used to being this size riding. i do believe with more riding and advil this too shall pass.

i was in the duck yesterday on my lunch break which i do about twice a week, and c was showing me this picture of this guy 400lbs and his after pic 13 months later at about 190 planning to do 5 IMs this year. i was like wow!!! but i realized the dude had surgery. that to me is cheating. and i have a feeling for that guy he will relapse. bottom line for me i was 225 not too long ago and now i'm 322 (on the way down) i got here one day at a time and when i succeed i will have done it one day at a time.

NO SHORTCUTS!!!

-dominator


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Exed n Peed the Niney...

ok, for those who r already in pretty darn good shape AND you like spending an HOUR a day doing dvd work outs. NOT ME. but workouts are good its just not my style. i would almost rather drive to the gym and swim 2 miles than do one workout. it's kinda like that time i bought that treadclimber pos instead of getting better bike. sure it worked but it was gut wrenchingly boring. the problem with the pee 90 vids is that i hate gym workouts and this thing is just apesh1t crazy workouts.

so what i decided to do was to downgrade the vids and go with the 10min trainer workouts by the same people. these are just 4 managable 10min workouts you can do anytime. and that's more of what i need. i want to go for a ride after work and do some training in the morning. but an HOUR... of course not. and there is no way i was going to it after work or give up a ride or do it after a ride so that just left spending an hour after work when the weather is shi77y outside. so, i'm sure i'll be able to muster 10mins either before work or around a ride. that's the plan anyways.

griff is getting on my nerves jumping on the laptop and being a general nuicance so i'm signing off.


-dominator


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I'm Back Writing...

well i haven't felt much like writing and i wasn't going to bore you with "i did this, didn't do that". let's just say i'm throwing last week to the wolves. i didn't do anything i said i was so i just decided to take a break and hit it hard on monday. so i'll be coming up with different ttnw list items this week. my list just got too massive and i just wanted to stop or slow down a bit.

ok, this week i will concentrate on the things i know i can do and not worry about the areas of improvement. for instance, eating at certain times are OUT. if i'm not hungry i'm not going to force it. i will try to reduce caffine intake as well as eliminate sugar. last week that was the ONE thing i did do was get rid of drinking and eating sugar. i will keep this up.

i was watching a tony robbins infomercial yesterday and what it boils down to is one thing...ACTION!!!

smarts, money, fame, good looks, none of these things on their own will get you success. now combine any of them with positive action and now you're one to something. this is what i am seeing and this what i will try to prove out in the coming weeks. so this week i am working out a doable list. and i'll keep you in the loop as to what i'm doing day to day.


-dominator


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Windy Windy Night...

i went out last night on the bike and the wind wasn't too kind. i am still trying to get the hr down. just call it a hunch but the weight over 3bills isnt helping. so i'm trying to stay committed on the diet. not much on the ttnw this week. so far i'm doing what i can on the vids or going for a ride. i have been avoiding sugar with a lot of success but trying to force feed myself breakfast i decided to try and tackle that later. i have a plan next week to help with that.

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Pee Niney Ex...

WOW... i am still outta shape but i am doing better. i made it through the first of 2 circuts yesterday for a little over 30 mins worth of chest/back. today was plyo so i only could manage 12 mins. with my weight and lack of using jumping muscles in almost a year, it was cramp city. the good news is i'm not going to let anything stop me. i'm going to keep going. the rule now for the vids is go as long as you can without risking injury and things will get easier.

as motivation i decided to get some new trailrunners. anyone who knows me knows i have have a thing for gray trailrunners. they are very comfy but i will stick to my old ones to workout in until i break these in. new balance makes athletic shoes for feet of all sizes/widths and they are my favorite.

the weight has dropped 3lbs in one day but i know it has to do with all the sweat loss. it looks better than a higher # for sure so i'm happy.

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