the next episode...

welcome back. well i guess welcome back to myself since it has literally been years since i posted on a regular basis. before i do some catchup i just want people to know the personal stuff i share here isn't so you can respond with positive affirmations or for "atta boys" it's simply to express myself in a positive way and as a source of some therapy so to speak :). i'm not looking for advice and especially not criticism. my hope, especially going forward is that someone can relate, get some good info, and possibly make their day a little better. so let me catch you up on some things:

06/03/06 my last triathlon at my peak: and one of the best days of my life!!! things that happened that day...my 31st birthday, finished a tri, had bbq with some good tri friends (luv ya stacy), talked to the friends i loved the most in life on the phone (even the ones that always forget my birthday) talked to the last 3 intense loves of my life (2 past girlfriends and the first day i met my fiancee), one girl i was dating at the and cared about very much, all my best friends, AND the Mavs beat the PHX Suns and were the western conference champs for the first time in team history.

weight: 225 lbs 

08/08/08 my fiancee left: and "amputated my soul" she left me and rejected any attempt at therapy, reconciliation or any hope whatsoever of us working it out. i originally thought she "executed my soul" but it was simply an "amputation" from the neck down. this date is important only because this was the life event that started me down the path of "passive" self destruction.
weight: 265 lbs

02/17/10 my knee surgery: evidently my ACL had left me. my previous ACL surgery was in 2005. that was when i decided to give up the sport i loved so much (basketball) and start competitively mtn. biking and triathloning. not having to make quick cuts or direction changes, i guess i didn't notice the previous surgery didn't take and my body had "reclaimed" the graft. so in 2010 after my knee had swollen to the size of a grapefruit because of me working out on an elliptical, i found out i didn't have an ACL. i had a successful surgery.

weight: 325 lbs

06/22/10 ortho visit: after 4 months of rehab my knee wasn't healing decided to have a "quick clean-up surgery" the main problem here 

weight: 345 lbs

09/03/10 quick clean-up surgery: things went well and enjoyed some pappadeauxs afterwards :^D

weight: 335 lbs (340 after pappadeauxs)

12/15/10 ortho visit: knee still hasn't healed and keeps filling with scar tissue. doc says "until you lose weight your knee can't be in the proper position to heal correctly" definitely didn't like to hear that and started seriously considering weight loss surgery.

weight: 350 lbs

12/22/10 contact dr. kim: called and scheduled an appointment and began reading in-depth about all the different surgeries (lapband/bypass/sleeve)

01/17/11 dr. kim visit: while in the waiting room watching the vids about the procedure, it scared the crap out of me and i left without meeting dr. kim. more on that in another episode.

02/01/11 started training: decided i'd just try to train, eat right and hire a cycling coach to help me.

03/11/11 stopped training: things were ok at first but then the pain of even riding a half hour would linger for 2 days. this wasn't the good kind of pain but the bad kind of joint and bone pain. my knees, wrists and feet would ache and swell horribly. this is when i kinda gave up hope and didn't know what i'd do.

06/30/11 ortho visit: during the office visit he literally wrote "recommend gastric sleeve procedure" on my chart. after talking to my ortho i told him i would go back to dr. kim and do what it took to have the surgery.

07/12/11 dr. kim visit: i'll talk about him more in depth at another time but just know he could sell Raid to a bug. the important thing here is that i "enrolled" in the process.

07/26/11 first of 6 classes: my insurance had this stupid 6 classes (one a month) requirement.

12/18/11 last of 6 classes: the information was good but one class a month!!! when i was in the category of "super obese" (BMI of 50+) with there not being any category higher??? give me a fucking break fucking insurance company!!!

01/28/12 first pcp visit: needed to get primary care physician to sign off on my surgery. and of course the B---- wanted to give me every test under the sun. again, why am i here? to get a fucking surgery to fix my fucking problems!!!

05/07/12 pcp sign off: finally after heart sonograms, blood, catscans and urine tests she signs off.

06/05/12 petition insurance: insurance said i had to wait a year to have the surgery. so i sent in proof of no lack of coverage

06/28/12 insurance approval: i proved, they saw, they agreed to cover surgery with no waiting period.

07/06/12 finalized surgery schedule: got the letter from dr. kims office with all the dates finalized and reserved

08/27/12 gastric sleeve surgery date!!!!!!!

ok, now that's all caught up on Bastille Day i'll get to more stuff later. those that know me know i'm not one to really hold back, which is the main reason i put the blog to sleep for a while. i didn't want to tell people about things i wasn't 100% sure of and wanted make sure i was 100% committed. in the case of the chicken and the pig wanting to make breakfast... i'm the pig... the chicken is involved but the pig is committed...

-vive le daily dominator