almost there...

my biggest obsticle is a mental one. i have been struggling to move forward mentally but it hasn't been easy. i took 12 days off of work and the whole time my grandmother was in a coma so i didn't rest like i was planning to. a year ago this weekend i was on a getaway to proposed to my girlfriend. a year ago sunday i dropped to one knee and proposed. she said yes. i remember this like it was yesterday. that's my problem. i have too good of a memory. tomorrow with be the official day 4/27...

anyways, i figured it be good to get it out and help me move on. there are people that knew me before i met her and to those people i slowly declined into the 333lb lump of poo i am now. BUT... this is not me. i promise myself daily i will get back to where i was.

my number one focus point is mentally be where i am. i have for too long been stuffing down my emotions with food or other things. ENOUGH... i have been through some stuff and i must deal with it. i must FEEL it. so i am letting myself do that. i have given myself permission to feel things so i can sweep the deck clean and put a winning streak together. i will. right now NOTHING is taking priority over my mental health break NOTHING. i hope more positive things to say next time.

-dominator


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